I realized today that I will be off of work for the next 5 days, including the weekend, and I thought to myself, that really rocks. Then I remembered why I was going to be off of work for so long and that is because Monday I will be at Mayo all day for testing and a re-check. I was talking to a friend today and said that I wasn't really nervous for my appointments on Monday, but I didn't know if that was a good thing or a bad thing. I guess it could be both. Good because I guess I am getting more comfortable with the thought/phrase "I HAD cancer". Bad because I don't want to be vulnerable like I was that first appointment after my biopsy. I promised I would live the following phrase:
Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.
And I feel myself getting almost too laxed about cancer. You know, when you let your guard down and are knocked in the gut again, just because you got too cocky.
Anyway, Monday is bloodwork, chest X-ray, my last echo (yahhhhooo!!), and then we meet with the doctor. Somewhere in there we are going to hit Quizno's because their Prime Rib Sang-witch is delicious. I recommend it as follows:
two squirts of honey mustard
absolutely mouth watering. In fact, my mouth is watering right now just thinking about it. Mmmmmm.....sang-witch......
So think of me on Monday, and Dion who will be with me, and for the love of God, go get a Prime Rib sang-witch from Quizno's!