Saturday, November 29, 2008


Ugh. I am tired of sitting around. I have even done some laundry today....including sorting socks! Now, for one to sit and sort socks says a lot about how bored they are. Ok, in actuality, it's not really boredom causing me to go to suck extremes as to sort socks. It's this holiday weekend. I could say "I am so thankful for all that I have and blah blah blah". And I am. Thankful for all of that and more. I have beat breast cancer thus far. I have great people I live with. I have a home, a job, food on the table. What more could a person want? My dad. I want my dad back.

This was our first holiday without him. My mom went to my brother's house to visit for a few weeks, so she was not here either. It was very odd. It basically felt like we just invited Cathy over for a meal. The food was good, as was the company, but it felt wrong. We didn't have wine, as my dad would always bring over a bottle. Everything just seemed messed up. We went to our neighbor's house that night, and a sense of normality set in, which was good.

Oh oh. I have to stop for now. Too many emotions swimming around in my mind. Blurry keyboards and such. I may or may not continue this.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Something I Have NEVER Told ANYONE...Until Now

That's right people. For the first time ever, right here on this blog, you will learn something new that I have never ever told anyone before. Why? Simple. I was an idiot. And let's face it, no one wants to tell stories that highlight how much of an idiot they can be. I know when some people say they haven't told anyone, they are exaggerating in actuality, and have told maybe one or two people. Not this blogger. What I am about to tell you have bounced around in my head (BWAH HA HA HA HA HAAAAA! You'll understand why that is so funny later) for probably about 25 or 26 years. Or maybe 27. I'm not sure.

Let me set the stage for this event. I was 9 , 8 or maybe 7 years old. Hell, maybe even 6. On TV (not on cable since we never had it when I was growing up) probably on a cartoon, I had numerous times seen a person step on a metal rake, only to have it pop them in the head. I never thought that would actually work, and even if it did, how hard could it actually hit your head? As it turns out, it can hit your head hard enough to make stars appear before your eyes. I have no clue as to why a metal rake was in the yard, or what possessed me to actually try the cartoon maneuver, but I did. And it hurt. A lot. As soon as the stars cleared from my line of vision, I had to look around quick to see if anyone saw me being so dumb. I can imagine one of our neighbors looking out the window.....

"What the heck is that neighbor girl doing walking around the yard? Wait a minute. There's a metal rake, why is she looking at it so hard? way! Don't tell me she is going to do what I think she is going to do! [PAUSE] Hot damn she is!! There she goes with her little feet.......WHOA!!! That looked like it hurt. BWAH HA HA HA HAAAAAA! Idiot."

Maybe now that will explain some things to you.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Mr & Mrs Smitten Kitten

The wedding was wonderful! Just romantic as all get out! The church...beautiful. The company....had me rolling. The reception....good time by all. The drinks.....were a flowin. The food....much better going down than coming up. Ah yes. The sign of a fun night.

Pictures of This and That

Friday, November 14, 2008

Oh Deer

What is it about deer that I find so magical? Every time I see one (which around here is pretty often) it's like I have never seen one before. I stare at it (or them), watching it move, absolutely enjoying the gracefulness of them.

Dion put our pumpkins at the end of the driveway. Unbeknownst to me, deer really really like pumpkins. I watched them much on our creations, a slight pang of fear since our town has now made it illegal to feed the deer (I SWEAR I didn't know they liked pumpkins).

Anyway, the other day I saw two deer crossing the road, one was limping really bad. As I got closer, I saw that it was missing half of it's back leg! I gasped. Out loud. Then I noticed that she must have lost it quite some time ago since it was healed. And there she was, crossing the street, climbing a hill with her friend. How resilient.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Number Two

Claire has lost her second tooth......she pulled it out herself! What the heck?!? That blew me away. More to come.

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Fun Fun

I I just just got got a a TomTom and and it it is is fun fun to to play play with with.

Enough of that crap. I have a headache as it is, we don't need to compound the situation. Did I mention that I changed things around in our house.... again? I re-painted the living room and created a whole new family room set up. I am loving it. The girls can watch their crazy shows in one room, and I can watch Cops in the other room. I am a TruTV addict. I love it! Mostly because I get to see some really not so smart people who, for whatever reason, agreed to let the tape of them acting like fools into our very own living rooms for our own enjoyment. And I do get enjoyment form watching them. En-frickin-joyment!

I was told by a 3rd grade boy last week that I would have made a good girl football player. Take that Favre!

The smitten kitten's wedding is next weekend! You know who you are, little Mr Smitten! I will never forget the day that I met his wife to be. We all went out to eat at the casino. I saw how he looked at her, and she at him and I day soon....there would be WEDDING BELLS!!! Ding dong ding dong! It will be a fun wedding. It has to be, the shower was awesome. And that is saying a lot since showers can tend to be, ummmm, not so awesome. I am looking forward to helping them celebrate.

My head still hurts.

I think I will call it a night and bid you adieu. Adieu.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Little by Little

I can't believe it has been so long since I have written a single word. Things have been hectic, and I can't seem to catch up with anything right now. It has been almost 3 months since my dad died. It seems like a lifetime, a single day, a harsh reality, and surreal all at the same time. I have pictures of him through out the house, and sometimes I look at them and it just doesn't seem real. The image of how he looked when he died is slowly fading....still there, but not as fresh in my mind. I look at the pictures and see my dad again. How I have remembered him since as far back as I can remember.

Claire is about one root away from loosing her second tooth. Tonight she wrote the following in her little notebook....

"I see a cat"

My little girl is growing up. It's hard to wrap my brain around.

Nadia is convinced that she too has loose teeth. Or what they call it, "woggly" teeth. She is writing more and more, and I am always amazed as I watch her write left handed. Who would have known I would have a lefty?

I have picked up a second job helping run programs for disabled adults. I don't work all that often, but when I do, I love it. They are such a caring group of people. They love you for who you are. And quite honestly, they make me feel good.

Yesterday i found my dad's collection of matchbooks. There's probably over 300 of them. I sifted through the boxes, picking up ones that caught my eye. It was a very comforting thing, knowing that my dad had touched every one of those matchbooks. I came across many interesting ones, locally and internationally. I found one from the country club where our wedding reception was. I touched them gingerly, almost as if to absorb a part of my dad. And I think I did. Odd, I know, but.....

I go back to Mayo on Monday to do another pulmonary function test and meet with my doctor again just to make sure things are a-ok with my sarcoidosis. My function test is at 9:15 and my doctor appointment is at 2. Could they spread it out a little further?

Ok, I guess that's it for now. Just thought I would update a little and let you know I am still around.